Wrinkly Women and Wisdom.

It's been a minute since I have updated this.... and alot has taken place.

I will tell you of a curent peace that Ihave felt...

I sat in a room with elderly woman knitting, mother's bustling from soccer practice, and carefully manicured mistresses. I wondered to myself, what in the world do we have in common? I must be in the wrong place, wrong room... One woman began to lead us in a prayer of liturgical nature and as our voices cried in unison of our deep need for to rely upon Lord... I felt peace. Then she continued to talk about her journey over the past decade and her struggles. The circle of solidarity that I sat in {completely out of place} began to also share of their weakest points. One woman in particular shared of something that I too struggle with and as she spoke, she used language andmetaphors that I too had used to describe the chains. She has been in recovery from this for over a decade. I think it's amazing how wrinkly women have so much wisdom. She attributed her recovery to the Lord. to His love. to His grace. His peace.

It came time for me to share and I with shaky hands and voice, I shared of my current state, what brought me there, and how I hardly beleived in hope for a change. I told them that I resonated with some things that had been said, but I need willingness. I finished abuptly.

The more stories were shared, the more I began curious if the Lord would give me the strength that he had given these women, too?

One day at a time, I am being convinced that healing is not only possible for others, but for me as well. This is a lesson I never thought I needed to learn. I do. It takes work. I have to remind myself that His love extends to my prideful hands hat are so hell bent on fixing things myself.

I might actually need others. I might actually have needs. dang. When you do things long enough for yourself, it's a weird concept to swallow.

I will go again to this circle of wise women, and perhaps i will learn a thing or two from others that have walked before me.

ALSO.

I have been having fun. My instruments have been keeping me busy, refreshed and occupied, and I dare say i am getting pretty good a them. I have been playing shows quite a bit which is pretty surprising considering my band hasn't recorded. I am extremely thankful for the opportunities to spread hope to others and share a bit about myself. It's easier to sing about myself than talk about. We will see how it goes, and for now... I am just happy I get to do what I love.

We are recording this weekend. I am so excited I could pee my pants.