Protection

I had a recent encounter with a creepy man. Don't really want to go into details, but my encounter made me feel so unsafe. I am terrified to go to my house alone, and even with people. I am constantly looking over my shoulder, and I hate living in fear. I know that I have a hedge of protection around me, and that has been the way I have approached living my life for the past years. I never thought twice about hiking by myself, going on night adventures in the mountains, taking the bus when it's dark, walking alone in the city...It's really sad that I have to second-guess my actions because men have a sick a twisted agenda sometimes. In my perfect life, there would be no worry, I could bike across this country and not fear that I would get picked up by some man. The reality is, the fear is there. I keep surrendering it, but it seems like it creeps its way back into my head.

I think its the feeling of protection that I really lack right now. When I am with my dad, I feel completely at ease. With past flames... the same comortableness takes over. I know i should look to the Lord for His comfort, but pardon me for saying that I need a Protector. Someone to say, "Everything will be okay. I am here." I am not some helpless girl that always needs a special someone, but to find a Protector... is a good thing...or shoudl I say for him to find me.

Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine. - Isaiah 43:1