Freedom

To know about my journey, I feel like it's neccesary to know about some big things that have been affecting my life. I'll start by saying this. I know some people write these blogs and put their best foot forward, talking about all the rad things they are doing, places they are going, people they are hanging with. They post things on the positives in their life, but I guess I missed the memo on how to correctly write a blog. I'm real and I have so many faults. I dissapoint people all the time, and I will most likely dissapoint you. I'm damaged goods. But, I'm not just that. His grace has covered it all. I have been a slave to addictions and superficiality, but I have been called to be Free. So, with all that said, some of the things i write in this blog are about lessons I'm learning, and healing that is taking place. I don't write to make myself seem cooler in your eyes, or more attractive. I blog because He has written every line of my story, for His glory... and I know anything good in me is Him. The days I spend here are blessings, and each one can give you a little more understanding of where I am on this journey.



Today was incredible. Thank you Daddy for the sunshine! I needed it so badly. I woke up early, had a meeting, then met Haylie, Logan and my new friend Tasha at Sope Creek. The weather was absolutely perfect. The company was even better...

I had so many hesitations moving back to Atlanta because some relationships I had been building for years here were, well were non-existent anymore, really. I let my selfishness get in the way of truly caring for and pouring into others before I left for Portland. I had created a divide between of few of these people that seemed like would never and could never be bridged again. And for me, being someone who prides themselves in pursuing friendships through love, it is shameful to admit how my selfishness did impact my dearest friends. But it did. When I finally moved back, guilt and more shame continued to cloud my life. I felt miserable with how I was treating others, and yet still claiming to be a lover...a peacemaker...a friend. I got in touch with the girls that I had hurt and they have since had nothing but grace and forgiveness to offer me.

We are now growing again in our friendship and I cannot tell you how blessed I am for the the grace I have experienced with them. It really has given me a glimpse of the Kingdom.


Grace amazing has overflowed in almost all of my relationships now. With my family, I have come to overlook past hurts and dfferences and reach boldly out in love. The spirit that dwells in me enables me to speak peace and love into other's lives, but by living selfishly, I wasn't even able to use my gifts effectively. Everything that I was holding on to so tightly and seeking selfishly is nothing to me.

I know my story is not unlike anything you have heard or read before. I was lost, found, hurt, healed and now free. My story continues, I still will struggle, be beaten down, and I'll get back up...praising His name and spreading his love whereever I go.